Is God in control?
Life happens…. Every single day. There are things that we do automatically without even thinking about it. Other things we sit and ponder and think about constantly. Events happen in our lives and we accept without question. Some events happen and we question God and wonder why this happened to us. Why didn’t I get the job, or the promotion, or the relationship didn’t work, or something happens in your health. When you get a headache do you question why? Do you question why you got stopped at a red light when you’re in a hurry? No… we except these things as being part of life and we keep going. But when it comes to something that we really want or desire….. If God doesn’t answer us the moment we ask for it we get discouraged and start questioning everything. Why do we do that? In my own personal experience, I’m able to let God handle so many things in my life, but when it came to one Promise that he put in me, I had the hardest time accepting that I could not control it and I needed to let go and let God. Proverbs 3:5-6 says to Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all ways acknowledge Him and he will make your paths straight. I read this scripture all the time. It’s on my wall at work. I believe God and I trust in Him, but I had a serious issue with this one promise. One Sunday while I was waiting on my kids to serve at church I went to my truck and just cried. I even cried about other people’s issues, I cried for what I have and the fact that I couldn’t control my emotions at the time. I cried for this promise and why it seems to be taking forever to be brought to me. I felt totally alone and like I had no one. I know none of this is true. I prayed and cried for almost an hour. I felt so drained and tired after. I don’t even know what I prayed for. I just remember talking to God and still not feeling at peace. I don’t like that feeling. Later on while waiting on my daughter I went to the lake and wrote in my journal. As I wrote, I started getting this feeling that something serious was about to change. Something big was going to happen. It happened on Monday. I had a huge epiphany…. I was talking to a friend about my night and he brought something to my attention that made me think. He said that I trust God and I believe Him in my head, but my heart didn’t believe that God could make it happen, I was completely taken aback by that statement. I was a bit upset by it as well. I thought that can’t be true…. I believe in Him and His promises, He’s already answered so many of my prayers. When I thought about it later, I realized he was absolutely right. If I trusted and believed God completely I wouldn’t be stressing like this over a situation that I have no control over. God put this promise in me and He did it for a reason. He will make it happen when the time is right. My pastor says that God is never late, but He’s always last minute…l get it!! So for me the woman who is used to being in control, I had to come to terms with the fact that if I want my life to be what God intends it to be, I had to completely let go and let God be in control. When I did I felt a peace that I can’t describe. Let God be God and be in control, it will be the best thing you’ve ever done.
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